older=better?

When I was a teenager I couldn't wait to be a full-fledged adult. Some of my reasons as to why being grown up would be so much better than being a "kid" included:

I'll have my own car
I can go anywhere I want
I can go where ever I want
I can eat whatever I want...on my own couch
I'll have my own apartment
I can sleep until noon and won't get in trouble
I can eat brownies for breakfast
Essentially freedom to the max

There was a period of time when I was pretty free to do whatever the heck I wanted to do. It was called college. And it feels like it was an eternity ago.

But in college I wasn't really on my own or grown up. I did stupid things, although they were pretty fun (pranking dorms, going to Del Taco at all hours of the night, getting chocolate milk thrown at our window...well that wasn't fun) I still didn't know what it meant to be an actual adult. Even when I was first married I was only beginning to experience adulthood. In the last 2 or 3 years I've really started to grasp what it means to be grown up. And sometimes I long for the yesteryears of youth. Here's a translation of what it really means to be an adult:

I'll have my own car = I'll have my own car payment, insurance payment, gas to buy, and repairs to make.
I can go anywhere I want = I can be gone between for a very specific amount of time during a very specific part of the day because it will interfere with Blake's nap.
I can go where ever I want = I can go where ever I want as long as it's free.
I can eat whatever I want...on my own couch = I will learn to not eat anything on my couch.
I'll have my own apartment = I will pay way too much in rent. And a studio apartment is not something that is "really cool".
I can sleep until noon and won't get in trouble = I'll still be tired if I sleep until noon so I might as well get up now.
I can eat brownies for breakfast = I can eat brownies for breakfast when brownies have the same nutritional value as broccoli.
Essentially freedom to the max = Freedom? Ha.

Adulthood isn't all that bad. But it's funny how you can long for something because you have no clue what it will actually be like. Then you get it and you realize you should have read the fine print.