Thursday, December 16, 2010

honesty of the brutal kind

Yesterday Blake didn't nap very well. While I don't have a rigid schedule of when he eats and sleeps, he generally follows a pretty set pattern:

wake up at 6:30 and eat
go back to sleep until 9:30
eat and play until noonish
short nap
eat lunch and play until 5ish
eat dinner and play until bedtime

The times in his schedule aren't really set. I just try to watch him and when he gets fussy and shows signs of being tired then I put him down for a nap. I know not everyday will follow that schedule and I don't expect it to (especially on Sundays). But yesterday my little one didn't go back to sleep in the morning like he usually does and hardly napped at all the rest of the day. He was awakened by a neighbor who had locked himself out and rang our doorbell. Then later in the day he just decided he only needed a 20 minute power nap.

He finally took an almost 2 hour nap last night, which ended at 8. So you can imagine that when his bedtime rolled around he was pretty wired and I was ready to sleep for 3 years. And of course this morning he decided not to go back to sleep again, so I figured today was going to be about as exhausting as yesterday was. In all honesty, that's when I thought I'd be crazy to have another child. I don't know how my mom did it and I don't know how anyone else has more than one child. I felt bad thinking that, but it's truly how I felt. And I always wanted to have a big family!

But then as I was typing this blog I noticed that Blake was unusually quiet. When I looked down at him, this is what I saw:

And then I honestly thought that I'd miss that cute little baby when he was a big boy and would probably want another baby after all.


Nina @ Momma Go Round said...

Girl, I feel ya! I was dying to have Landon, but now that he's here and getting bigger by the second, I'm not dying for another one...yet. I miss having a litle one who isn't always on the run, but there are days that I'm just so tired I can't imagine another wee one.

Tori Wilding said...

cute bib!!

Chelsea said...

What a sweet angel! Ya I have my days where I am like oh snap, we are going to have a kid in 5 months. Yikes. I'm pretty sure I don't know what we were thinking, but hopefully this new kid will be a sweet one! To tell you the truth, I don't really miss having a newborn - it is SO hard, but I know we want more kids and don't want to be changing diapers when I'm 60 and that means being pregnant and going through all the stages of growing up...diaper explosions, nursing, all nighters, and all. All of a sudden I want my mommy...haha. It's scary, but I guess we've got to do it!

Lindsay said...

It's exhausting when kids don't sleep. Caleb had trouble settling down again at bedtime last night, and at 2:00 he woke up frantic and wouldn't go back to sleep unless I was holding him. It was a very long night. (But even so, it was pretty precious to look at him cuddled up against me in the dark.)

Losing Brownies said...

Amazing how you have those change of thoughts so quickly! I hope that he naps better tomorrow!

Shaunel said...

so... is this just an East coast trend, cause Jackson just decided that naps weren't his thing any more.

It seems he either sleeps great at night, and terribly durring the day or visa versa. I haven't figured out which one is better. nighttime seems more appealing, but really--power naps do not allow anything to get accomplished!!!

WhisperingWriter said...

That picture is really cute.

For awhile I played around with just having one kid. But I really wanted a girl so we had another.